Have you noticed yourself becoming more and more anxious?

Have you decided that there must be something wrong with you?

If you’re young and just starting your wild adventure called life, you might not have questioned yourself on these matters. However, if like me, you’ve reached a level of success, have raised a family and furnished the dream, you might have started to wonder … is this it?

Many of us go through life on autopilot. We go to school, do what is expected of us, climb the career ladder and maybe even raise a family. We may take out a mortgage, become locked into lifestyle creep and just keep going.

We keep going until we don’t!

We spend our lives living out a prescribed way forward, ticking off moments and moving on to the next milestone. We do this without taking the time to enjoy each moment. Without taking the time to grasp the enormity of our achievements so far.

Then bang! Something in our lives causes us to stop and question everything. For me it was losing my parents. Watching them struggle at the end made me question everything about my life.

I thought there would be support for their health, our struggles, and our connection to the world. I soon realized it was up to me to find help, navigate this scary experience, and ultimately get through it.

All these thoughts lead me to dangerous places in my mind. As if the grief of losing loved ones is not difficult enough. To then, start questioning your whole life, makes it much more difficult.

I knew I’d started to become more anxious. I stopped and took in some big deep breaths. At that moment, I knew I had good reason to feel anxious. Allowing these thoughts was a new thing for me. My whole life I’d been encouraged to keep going no matter what.

I thought many times that there must’ve been something wrong with me. Others were coping. The world was still turning. Work still had to be done. Food still needed preparing and eating. I just found it more difficult. Again, when I allowed myself to stop, I took in some more big deep breaths. Then I knew that it was normal to feel how I was feeling.

Since going through this whole experience, I’ve spent time, reading, researching and evaluating and questioning a great deal.

I was suffering was BURNOUT not just grief. I realised that this hadn’t crept up on me out of nowhere, it had been there for a long time. I also realised that I was not alone with this suffering. Yes, there was grief, but there was definitely burn out behind it all.

Over the course of my journey, I’ve exposed the lies that I’ve believed my whole life. I’m now ready to share my ideas to help you.